suede ;

Sunday, November 30

x holding back the tears while the world crashes down x
saturday ;
seriously, i didnt sleep much last night
i woke up at like 845 alright
anyhows i was 10 mins late and wl 20 mins late
and kerr was like half an hr late!!
now its like the other way round..
usually kerr wld be the first to arrive
guess she has learnt her lesson to come later
went to esplanade to do work with my bagful of food
yes yes alot of food. damn heavy
like go picnic mans

then had to be caught in the rain again
two consecutive days already!
if tmrw rains, i'll kill myself
then wl went home first cos she has to go hme and eat PIZZA cos its her bro's bday
like huh! bday still eat at home
damn weirdd..
then walked ard town and saw kerr's bro's gf!!
workin in topshop! she looks nice lah
think the gf damn unfortunate to have kerr's bro as her bf
and kerr agrees too. hahaha :|

kerr said some funny thing tday
cos wl was like talkin smth about toast
then kerr was like " u put toes in curry potato then can get curry potato toes"
like toes sounds almost the same as toast!
so LAME lah

reached home ard 9 plus only to see my sis ready to go out
thomas the egg fetchin her!
haha so kpo me went dwnstairs to see see
yes yes the car damn bigggg :|
and thomas speaks with a slang
how irritating

there's tuition tmrw!
and the return of my phone! :))))

so far away ; staind
this is my life
its not what it was before
all these feelings i've shared
and these are my dreams
that i'd never lived before
somebody shake me
cuz i
i must be sleeping

now that we're here,
it's so far away
all the struggle we thought was in vain
in all the mistakes,
one life contained
they all finally start to go away
now that we're here its so far away
and i feel like i can face the day i can forgive
and i'm not ashamed to be the person that i am today

these are my words
that i've never said before
i think i'm doing okay
and this is the smile
that i've never shown before

it doesn't matter whether i care anymore or not
it doesn't matter whether i'm bothered about it or not
even if i am ;
what does it prove ?
it just proves my ignorance and stupidity
why ask me to hate you ?
will it do me any good ?

howdy ho! 1:20 AM

Friday, November 28

x i can heal your heart ;
then what about mine ? x
went with the hockers to ikea tday
supp to meet in twn then they all late!
or rather i was early
alot of pple ask us to buy the 2 bucks thing
and they are paid 12 bucks an hr lorh!
tht woman bluffed us say shes not paid?!
and then this man keep askin us how many drug addicts are there in singapore
yes yes 42 000!!
saw per..yea kinda ironic

anyways wont let it dampen my mood
headed dwn to ikea!
found stuff for our seniors! hahah
qt special i think
and chow damn funnie
she saw this box of straws and then she said
" eh buy this for them. the msg behind it is you suck "
get it ?
haha but she was just joking lah

we got caught in the rain
was freezing cold AS USUAL
sat xinyi's cab home!
cold like mad!
we used the farewell gifts as blankets!
me chow and chai took a lift home frm her
thanks xinyi! :)

the last song ; the all-american rejects
this may be the last thing that i write for long
can you hear me smiling when i sing this song, ~~for you and only you~~

as i leave will you be someone to say good-bye
as i leave will you be someone to wipe your eye
my foot is out the door, and you can't stop me now
you wanted the best, it wasn't me, will you give it back
now i'll take the lead, when there's no more room to make it grow
i'll see you again, you'll pretend you're naive, is this what you want
is this what you need, how you end up let me know.

as i go, remember all the simple things you know,
my mind is just a crutch and i still hope, that you will ~~miss me~~ when
i'm gone
this is the last song

the hearts start breaking as the year is gone
the dream's beginning and the time rolls on
it seems so surreal, now i sing it.
somehow i knew that it would be this way,
somehow i knew that it would slowly fade.
now i'm gone, just try and stop me now.

and will you need me now, you'll find a way somehow
~~you want it too, i want it too.~~

thanks the so-called "da bor" for talking to me!
appreciated it :))))

howdy ho! 11:45 PM

x i guess everything
happens for a reason ;
& in the end its all my fault anyway x
went to meet ck, dora, loreen and wl tday!
to cut the long story short.. here goes

me and wl were late as usual!
were on a taking photo spree
saw XUN!!! AHHHHH
she walk damn chor lor lah!
then she kept scoldin us for laughin at her
but she looked FINE, really
not that bad lahh
took pics with her! hahaha very happy :)
den took with becca, den, eve and other pple!
haha forgot already
but evryone look so nice and evrything
so looking forward to grad! :D
yes and tht will only come after a yr of intensive mugging and hibernating :|

then shopped ard with wl
alot of funnie shit lah :D
shall not mention! im too lazy to type!

anyhows waited so long in vain!
ck so angry!! hahaha but had fun anyways

when i'm gone ; 3 doors down
there's another world inside of me
that you may never see
there're secrets in this life
that i can't hide
somewhere in this darkness
there's a light that i can't find
maybe it's too far away..
maybe i'm just blind..
maybe i'm just blind..

so hold me when i'm here
right me when i'm wrong
hold me when i'm scared
and love me when i'm gone
everything i am
and everything in me
wants to be the one
you wanted me to be
i'll never let you down
even if i could
i'd give up everything
if only for your good
so hold me when i'm here
right me when i'm wrong
you can hold me when i'm scared
you won't always be there
so love me when i'm gone

love me when i'm gone...

when your education x-ray
cannot see under my skin
i won't tell you a damn thing
that i could not tell my friends
roaming through this darkness
i'm alive but i'm alone
part of me is fighting this
but part of me is gone

part of me is gone.

howdy ho! 12:12 AM

Wednesday, November 26

my paper heart ;
the all american rejects
please just don't play with me
my paper heart will bleed
this wait for destiny won't do
be with me please i beseech you
simple things, that make you run away
catch you if i can

tears fall, down your face
the taste, is something new
something that i know
moving on is, easiest when i am around you.

so bottle up old love,
and throw it out to sea,
watch it away as you cry
a year has past
the seasons go

waiting, day to day it goes through
my lips, are sealed for her
my tongue is,
tied to, a dream of being with you
to settle for less, is not what i prefer

summer time, the nights are so long
the leaves fall down, and so do i into
the arms of a friend
winter nights
my bedside is cold, for i am gone
and spring blossoms you to me

howdy ho! 2:49 AM

Tuesday, November 25

x i'd show a smile ;
but im too weak x
i watched a sad movie on ch8 just now
this guy is a little retarded and his mom has cancer
and he is left all alone in the world to fend for himself
so poor thing..

anyhows my dad was lookin at the baby fotos tht my sis brought to sch
and then he came into the room and said smth like "woah this was you last time"
then i looked at the foto and said "umm thts jie what"
mans. my dad cant differentiate me and my sis apart!!! :|

remember waiting
for you to come
remember waiting
for you to call
remember waiting there to find nothing at all

maybe someday
you really get to know me
not just the letters read to you
i pray i get the chance
to make it up to you
we got a lot of catching up to do

so i pretend, i'm doing all i can
and hope someday you'll find it in your heart

to understand
why i'm not around
and forgive me for not being in your life

howdy ho! 6:35 PM

i remember when you moved away,
you promised me that you'd be back one day,
but times have changed and so have i,
it sucks that friendships end
with a goodbye.

i never thought that friendships last forever.
but now that you're gone
i'm pretty sure we end up all the same.
still i won't say goodbye.
won't ever say goodbye.
and know that I'll always be your friend..

howdy ho! 3:40 AM

x the sky's a different grey x
had trng at NYP! yet another boring monday..
i realised tht all my entries start with trng first
like no life mans!
anyhows i thought the whole sec3 team wld be here tday but in the end only FOUR of us turned up!
me, chai, connie and lingyi!!
i was lookin forward to today's trng cos chow will be back from chiangrai!
but she got cramps!
chai and i so disappointed!
cos trng so quiet without her!
the sun tday was crazy and jude also
he made us do sprints right after our match then later have match again then have to do shuttles sumore!!

had fun sprayin the adidas spray though
me and chai so enthu lah. cheap thrill
then headed to esplanade to do work!
ended up doin ABIT of my math and alot of talking
hahaha. qt unproductive
saw denise keller in town!!
happened to pass by the daniel yam shop and i saw yee on!
haha i think she was waiting to try her gown lahh :|

am home now & my sis is out for supper
the THIRD consecutive day!
she is not gonna be able to lose weight like this!

btw, this is from yuan loong's nick
"im on a seafood diet!
i see food and eat them!"

thts like how lame :|

not goin for SRC tmr also cos its hari raya AND i wanna watch punk'd AND the elite models! :))))

howdy ho! 12:40 AM

Sunday, November 23

when day turns into night ; busted
nobody's there when you get home
your renting movies on your own
my photo's on your bedroom wall
you sit there waiting for my call

and i know
i leave you on your own
and i need you to be strong
when im walking away
and i
i hate to say goodbye
it gets harder everytime
what i feel
you feel inside
when the day turns into night

another tired afternoon
another destined hotel room
i hate the fact that your not here
but now im counting down the days till i get there

feipo & maria are back from m'sia!!!
yay yays! :D

howdy ho! 10:46 PM

Saturday, November 22

x island life, love it! x
headed down to harbour front to meet kerr and wl today
AMAZINGLY and FOR THE FIRST TIME in our entire life we were all on the same train!!
so none of us were late/early
hahas. a good start!
were on the bus to sentosa when suddenly the bus jerked and only THREE of us screamed!
like damn loud. was super malu cos in frnt of us were this big grp of pple
hahah. then went to tan
the sun was good! hot and nice!
and no rain! although it said showers in the early afternoon..
then sheena came from sch to join us
played daidee. was stoning our life away mans
went up to rasa sentosa the hotel to put our stuff!
it had a balcony overlookin the whole of sentosa!
was damn NICE!

then went cycling while wl rollerbladed
sheena's bro came along too
dunt know whether its supp to fortunate thing or not
cos he kept pissing sheena off!!
and he kept cycling so damn fast
was so scared smth happen then dunno how to ans to his parents man!
cycled to the jungle trail
there was this stupid hump which me and wl almost fell because of it!!

so later went back to the hotel to swim!
30 laps of the very very small swimming pool
then went up and took fotos then bathed
was super super hungry by then
so had no choice but to eat at sentosa cos sheena cldnt go out of sentosa
the stuff are like friggin EX!!

stoned ard at the beach after we ate and played daidee agn!
saw wl's frns!
marcel and sperm..
they are like damn pro lah!
pitch their tent beside the sentosa hut and sumore have this clothesline to hang their clothes!
and and!!
they even brought their own pot
dug a whole in the grd, started a fire and put the pot on top to cook stuff to eat!
like survivor!

anyhows, im so burnt!
pain pain pain..

howdy ho! 10:12 PM

x and it keeps falling x
its raining now! im so happy!
cos if it rains at night, sleepin will be so NICE!
okay right. since when wasnt sleeping nice anyway
anyhows goin to sentosa tmrw!!
yay yay! hope it doesnt rain
but if it does we shall just go to sheena's hotel!!
ahhh i hope evrythin will be damn fun
the hardest part is to wake up early lah
oops :|

im staring at your pictures
from my lonely little cell
i'm writing you this letter
to let you know i doing well
until we meet again
you know i'll cry a thousand tears
and i'll see you in another twenty years.
i'll see you in another twenty years..
i'll see you in another twenty years..

howdy ho! 12:39 AM

Friday, November 21

numbed ;
temptations are hard to resist

right from the start you loved me so
it took me so long to realise that you really do
could you see that i was afraid ?
trust ; i've been longing for

prove it ;
don't think i do not know

fade away..

howdy ho! 4:31 AM

Thursday, November 20

x i'm lost in the crowd ;
can you show me the way ? x
im tired of bloggin about what happens during trng cos its always the SAME OLD STUFF. hahahs.
after trng headed to twn with ping & jess to buy bodyspray
went to guardian and we were testin all the sprays
then came across this quite nice smelling one
so i asked ping whether the bodyspray was olive cos i only saw the words LIVE on the bottle
and she was like " eh no leh its A-LEAVE "
i was qt shocked cos it had such a weird name
then i looked agn and realised tht it was ALIVE!
and she pronounced it as A-LEAVE cos before tht i asked her whether it was olive!
hahaha she was so malu!!
bought other stuff and walked ard
and yay! hockey farewell is coming soon!!!
all the FOOD! :D

& i saw TINA TAN THE DCB at heeren!!
nvr see her and her mum for 3 friggin YEARS already!!
was so shocked! pleasant surprise nevertheless! :)))

angry nerd rock ; the ataris
time to burn it all away, time to think of what to say
time to go right back to yesterday.
time for movements in the past, time for something that won't last.
not just fire quick and die off fast.

things are never what they seem,
i'm stuck inside of someone else's dream.
problems never go away...
i'm sick of being caught in yesterday.

every day it's still the same, different faces, different names,
but still stuck here playing these stupid games.
maybe soon i'll figure out what giving up is all about.
my heart is filled so full of doubt.

don't turn around, don't look ahead
i won't listen to all the lies i'm fed.
don't have to listen to you
so don't you ~~fucking~~ tell me what to do.

howdy ho! 6:32 PM

life makes no sense; ataris
everything is turning grey, but i won't hold my breath today
cause' i'm not scared and to tell the truth i just don't care.
are you looking for an answer?
when you still don't know the question.

it's like lighting candles in the rain-
sometimes life can be a pain,
but don't give up without a fight.

sometimes when you feel afraid, don't give up and run away.
cause' two wrongs don't make a right.
what's the point in crying when you've done nothing wrong.
it was right there all along.

the world's nothing but a lie and everyone is going to die
but what can I say?
just help me make it through today.
you don't need a destination just to go somewhere in life.

it's like throwing feathers at the wind-
they come right back to you again.
so why not give it one more try?

just cause' things aren't what they seem
it doesn't mean you shouldn't dream
just don't get your hopes to high.
cause' when things don't turn out right
your world comes crashing down.

howdy ho! 12:37 AM

Wednesday, November 19

HAPPY BIRTHDAY QIAOY! :D
uhh yes..
at last i printed all my maths and chi hol hwk :|

howdy ho! 4:34 PM

Tuesday, November 18

x let the past be past;
the present without hatred x
back frm SRC trng!
dint play tday though cos the other players kept playin non stop
so we went joggin as usual
umm passed by embassy then jogged till the end and back
haha took a foto with the sea as the backgrd!
damn nice! looks as if its wallpaper backgrd like tht
anyhows heard the rest of the hockers say tht there was this woman naked in the SRC changing room
as in she dint wear anything at all and was sittin dwn!! manns
then went raffles city to eat agn!
and evryone ate the SAME THING!
like one whole table of 6 ate xiao guo mian?
haha our favourite!
it shd be our team food mans

yea then xinyi and connie headed home
leavin me, jess, chai and lingyi
was contemplating whether to go twn or not
cos we wanted to buy some bodyspray
so me and chai were like if someone gets off their seat at orchard then we go dwn
then reallie got two pple got dwn kay!
but in the end we decided not to
hahas. quite dumb lah actually
maybe goin on thurs after NYP trng!!
and yes NYP trng is yet agn agnst the VJ pple..

oh yaa. had chem practical assessment tday
and i broke the beaker and test tube!
what a waste of money!!
and all the water spilled out frm the beaker so the whole table was wet
and i spilled the water twice!
damn malu
may consider buyin a retort stand next time to practise :|

monday ;
had match agnst the VJ pple at temasek poly
selene, joyce and me had such a hard time findin the pitch
we got lost!! had to walk so far in!
anyhows st nicks won! 3-0!!
but VJ had alot of chances to score lah
somemore some of them only train for one yr only
so actually they are qt good alr
and my toe got hit!!
damn pain! now the whole thing is blue black!
really completely bruised like some coroded thing okayy!
it looks damn disgusting..yikes

oh yea watched are you hot!
the shipling guy is goodlooking!!
the girls all not as pretty as chantille!!
ahhh she is just so damn pretty lah! :D

howdy ho! 10:18 PM

Sunday, November 16

read this in justin's blog
i think its kinda true in a wayy..

sunny days wouldn't be special, if it wasn't for rain
joy wouldn't feel so good, if it wasn't for pain
death gotta be easy, cause life is hard
it'll leave you physically, mentally, and emotionally scarred

howdy ho! 1:24 AM

x its better the way it is x
watched wishing stairs with kerr and wl!!
mans i was FORCED to watch it
all thanks to wl!!
ughh! anyways the first hr of the show was watchable
not scary at all lah
then the last hour was totally like UGH!!
i dint even watch can
i was busy covering my eyes and only could hear pple scream and scream
freaky! and even till the last second it was still scary!
i REGRET!!

anyhows went to watch the nike freestyle face off at youth park
was qt good cos some of them were really pro
but i had to stand like one hour plus! and it was hot!
my poor legs
yea then left ard 930 or so
oh yah! saw darwin and wenxin! at last! :D

i'm tired
this games so dumb
she never played, her race's won
i'm tired
can't smile no more
i've sure caved in just like before

howdy ho! 12:39 AM

Friday, November 14

x you crushed it with your bare hands x
had lessons early in the morn at 8.30
was so tired doin experiments i fell aslp while lai was goin through the paper
okayy..only for a SHORT while alright
had maths which was kinda funnie
cos ms poore asked the OM to be the waitress for her restaurant?
cafe le poore! manns
math ended early so all of us ate lunch in sch!
ck was goin ard showin pple her magic trick!
and i know how to do it already!
and yes..ck derives pleasure when pple say "how did you do it?"
she was like so hyper can

then headed to j8
was raining so heavily!!
sat dwn and talked and talked
twas qt fulfillin? hmmms
no wish to elaborate!

got back my results slip!
actually i knew how i would fare alr
but anyhows was within what i expected
so shall work harder!
which means a step forward to hong lou meng!
yes yes the MOST MOST interestin chinese book ever!

i looked into your eyes & i knew i loved you;
now, i looked at it once more & i know its gone..

i feel so; box car racer
sometimes
i wish i was brave
i wish i was stronger
i wish i could feel no pain
i wish i was young
i wish i was shy
i wish i was honest
i wish i was you not i

'cause
i feel so mad
i feel so angry
i feel so calloused
so lost, confused, again
i feel so cheap
so used, unfaithful
let's start over
let's start over

sometimes
i wish i was smart
i wish i made cures for
how people are
i wish i had power
i wish i could lead
i wish i could change the world
for you and me

'cause
i feel so mad
i feel so angry
i feel so calloused
so lost, confused, again
i feel so cheap
so used, unfaithful
let's start over
let's start over

howdy ho! 10:35 PM

yay! i found the lyrics of hua xiang
the xun yi cao the theme song. NICE :D

ji yi shi zhen zhen hua xiang
wo men shuo hao shui dou bu neng wang
shou zhe hei ye de yang guang
nan guo que jia zhuang jian qiang
deng dai de ri zi li ni bi wo yong gan

ji yi shi zhen zhen hua xiang
yi qi zou guo yong yuan bu neng wang
ni de wen rou shi yang guang
ba wo de wei lai tian man
ti xing wo hua xiang chang zai
jiu xiang, wo de ai.

howdy ho! 1:31 AM

everything i knew; busted
everything i knew just went out the window
know i can depend on you - forever
and i never thought i'd see
my life walk away from me
i thought we'd always be - together

notice you didn't have to pay
for every word i say
and i wish i could change your decision
and you know that i try
and tell you what it's like
but you just wouldn't listen

lets go back lets rewind to the days that remind me
of all the good times that we spent together
and i don't know why we just let it all slide
when we both knew inside we were right for each other

i don't know what to do
cos your everything that i knew

everythings the same
it's like tomorrow never came
we used to talk about - whatever
and the seasons never change
we never used to act our age, everytime we were - together

how can you just walk out of my life
without even giving a reason
and how can you look so good
the day i watched you leaving

howdy ho! 1:02 AM

Wednesday, November 12

the interview with God
I dreamt I had an interview with God.

"So you would like to interview me?" God asked.

"If you have the time" I said.

God smiled. "My time is eternity."
"What questions do you have in mind for me?"

"What surprises you most about humankind?"

God answered...
"That they get bored with childhood, they rush to grow up, and then
long to be children again."

"That they lose their health to make money..and then lose their money to restore their health."

"That by thinking anxiously about the future, they forget the present, such that they live in neither the present nor the future."

"That they live as if they will never die, and die as though they had never lived."

And then I asked...
"As a parent, what are some of life's lessons you want your children to learn?"

"To learn they cannot make anyone love them.
All they can do is let themselves be loved."

"To learn that it is not good to compare themselves to others."

"To learn to forgive by practicing forgiveness."

"To learn that it only takes a few seconds to open profound wounds in those they love, and it can take many years to heal them."

"To learn that a rich person is not one who has the most, but is one who needs the least."

"To learn that there are people who love them dearly, but simply have not yet learned how to express or show their feelings."

"To learn that two people can look at the same thing and see it differently."

"To learn that it is not enough that they forgive one another, but they must also forgive themselves."

"Thank you for your time," I said humbly.

"Is there anything else you would like your children to know?"

God smiled and said,
"Just know that I am here... always."

author unknown

think its damn meaningful...

howdy ho! 10:40 PM

am so bored! i woke up at 230!
maybe i should reallie try to read my hong lou meng :))
and yes. i change the pic on my blog again..

the way i never thought i'd leave this place
the way you made it seem so real
cause you have faith and you had everything
and all i needed was this
and now we're falling
got nothing left to say?
and i can't break free
not from in me there

and i can't breathe without you
i can't breathe without you
i can't breathe without you
without you, without you, without you

how can i let you leave this way?
without you i'm not at all
and i see things now in these memories
just to see you...again

howdy ho! 5:20 PM

this is crappy shit by nigel!

would i want to?
when there's u?
cover up your scar
i'll be your tar

hahahas. and it rhymes!
anyways i dunt feel sleepy anymore..
that is weirdd..

one day ; simple plan
sometimes this house feels like a prison
that i just can't leave behind
there's so many rules
i gotta follow
cuz you can't let go

i don't wanna hear it
and i just can't believe it
all the stupid things you say, but

one day
i won't take this anymore
one day
i'll be old enough
to do what i want to
and i won't have to run away
and you won't be there to say i'm not allowed to
one day

sometimes i wonder if you know me
or if you just pretend to care
so tell me are you
on a mission to bring me down?

go away
don't look at me
cuz we're not the same
and you can't do nothing
you can say
that it's not okay
but i'm not afraid
and you can't do nothing

howdy ho! 2:52 AM

x life goes on;
with or without you x
slept the whole day!
after i woke up, i ate then went back to sleep agn!
then headed to cityhall to wait for chow
saw many cutecute things at rafflescity!
hahaha. then had trng
jude was so engrossed in playin with his other teammates so he dint reallie care abt us
so we had match on the grass
was so bored so we decided to go joggin!
jogged frm padang, passed by esplanade then along some river
the whole river alright!
dunno whose idea to run up and dwn the stairs man
jogged back to padang and it was alr 7
so waited till 730 so tht we could use the concrete floor to play match!
played till 8 then went to bathe!!
ahh nice nice smelling
nice toiletsss! :D
haha im madd. then went to eat!
was so hungry!!
okayy thts abt it. im tireddd
and chow and tanny are not goin for next wk's trng cos they are goin chiang rai!!
lucky piggs. anyhows i can wake up late tmrw AGAIN! :)
oh how i love to sleep :D

until i'm certain with myself ;
it's hard for me to feel this anymore
where have the feelings gone ;
i need to stop myself from hiding
i've been down for far too long i know these worries of mine
they won't change like the world i'm in

how do i change myself?

howdy ho! 1:05 AM

Tuesday, November 11

x i've learned that time can heal your wounds;
but the reminder of a scar will stay x
i feel so lazy to blog cos i totally forgot what happened these few days
hahas. so tiredd!! sleepy me :(
went to fei's hse for dinner on sunday!
maria & a few other pple were there also
and maria's bro is sudd sooo tall!!
haha and he was helpin fei's mum cook
so funnie. but hes still qt chubby lah
fei's mum cooked alot of taiwan saugages!!
my favourite! :D
yepps then learnt how to play bridge!
at last. okay sort of learnt hw to play lah
its quite confusing actually
haha then someone played the guitar and sang
damn funnie!
watched half of brainiest tcher also!
mr wong is smart mans! ahh heard tht he shd have won if not for some rg tcher
grrrr. yea then went hme ard 10 or so and did my math hwk!

monday ;
went to sch for lessons agn!
chem prac! 3 whole hours
very very boring i tell you
keep doin experiment
and always the same results
white ppt insoluble in excess NAOH
then i inhaled some gas and i think it made me feel damn sleepy
gees. had one and half hrs of math after tht

went to twn with ck ONLY!
haha so pathetic mans
cos wl went for FACIAL and joyce had headache
i so wanna eat earthquake and tht ck dunwan to eat :((
so went taka food court and bought food
walked ard the whole of wheelock tryin to find a dustbin!
and finally saw this SMALL dustbin at this reallie secluded corner
manns. and then was quarrelling to ck abt whether its DUMBO or JUMBO the elephant
hahahas. ohh went to borders and read the small small books!
and ck was so engrossed with the magic trick book

then went to lido to find the alpha bear!
but dunt have! so sat there and did our math hwk!
so hardworkin! the whole exercise
was qt easy lah actually
wanted to read my hong lou meng but no time!
haha to think i actually brought my hong lou meng to twn okayy
headed hme after tht and i found the alpha bear with the letter M at j8!

watched are you hot!
woahh tht girl is damn pretty
she looks like a doll
the chantill (spell?) or smth
anyways she won in the end
as in the whole competition lah
cos my sis checked out the winners on the net alr
trng tmrw at SRC! yay! its been MONTHS since i went there
no sch tmrw tht means i can SLEEP ALL I WANT! :)))))))

when you lose a part of your self
to somebody you know
it takes a lot to let go
every breath that you remember
pictures fade away but memory is forever

very true indeed..

howdy ho! 1:27 AM

Saturday, November 8

x cheer up my friends all say,
you're better alone anyways x
back from a whole day of walkinggg
very very tired leggs
manns. anyways was supp to meet wl. jm and xinyu at 1130
but..was very sleepy so decided to meet them later
which was like 5 mins before the movie started!!
hahahs. yep watched matrix. its was like super noisyy
never liked this type of noisy movies
and half of the movie was filled with a sea of red and orange
and the machines inside look like termites and red ants to me
hah. some parts were qt sad though
but the movie was qt good lahh

then saw qiaoy, linwei, wanx, shauna and yanni at cine too
then headed to heeren then to taka then cine agn
saw maria and tanny
oh yeaa pierced my ears!! hahaha
after much hesitation
wasnt tht pain after all
ate at pasta mania!
and its damn filling!!
even though tht was the first thing i ate throughout the whole day
must be the cheese and cream sauce

then went somewhere near cine area to hear pple sing songs
hahah. then wl and jm requested for any jay chou's songs to be sung
and they sang qing tian!
mm then went to check out the alpha bear for my sis
no more M! and now is like the last 6 of the alphabets alr
so sadd..left twn ard 945 or so

i dint get to learn how to play mahjong :((
anyways dinner at fei's house tmrw!!
yay yay yay! :D

why'd you have to go?
and make me say these things about you
why'd you have to turn around?
after all that we've been through..

howdy ho! 11:34 PM

my solution; new found glory
well i feel there's something wrong with my life
but that's the way it should be
i really hate it when i lie to you
but what does the truth mean to me
well what went wrong
your back is turned again
is this the beginning or the end

is this all wrong you are more than a friend
such a position that i'm in
well you know i'm trying so hard to live my life without you
and i tried so hard i got you now inside my heart it kills fueled by your love

in the end i'll call your name
i'm letting go it's time for you to know
that all this time i've been so wrong
i'm letting go the time's more fast than slow
and everything is there for you

well you know
when i go away from you i lose control
my body is feeling cold like a winter day
then i close my eyes a picture so clear
then i close my eyes

and it will still come out wrong

howdy ho! 3:10 AM

Friday, November 7

x and i walked right past you x
no more CHINESE!! woo hoo!
okay i thnk im qt slow alr cos evryone must be cheerin long ago alr
ackks. just came home and i still havent bathed!
smelly me.

anyways woke up bright and early to take chi Os
saw mr koh while i was in the bus
he was wearin this blue shirt with BIG WHITE FLOWERS
very weird i tell you
did the bao zhang bao dao and si han
guess its qt alright lah
wrote whatever i could and then was so malu-ed cos the whole class was waitin for to poke a hole through my ans booklets cos i used 2 booklets
and i had sucha hard time pokin them through
so damn thick! and had to use this pathetic string to tie them up?

then studied frm 10 am all the wayyy to 2pm!!
nvr been so cheena-fied before!
kerr, sheez, wl and me kept memorisin zao jus and more zao jus
and linkin evry word we could think of tgt
reallie torture mans! saturated with so many chi words!
hmm but paper two was qt okay i guess
maybe the compre was a little tricky

headed to twn with kerr to shop for smth tht i cant say here -grins- :D
walked like almost evrywhere!
and still cant find anythin nice to buy
so damn tired; luggin 8 shouces along with me
ate and long johns with my 5 packets of tomato ketchup! :)
saw meiru and nigeY there also. hahaha.
yea then went to the kids section in taka to search for childish stuff
then on the way out i heard someone behind me say "fatface"
and it was mr koh alright!
creepin behind us! mans
and he kept suanin abt us carryin dictionaries to twn
lookin oh-so nerdified. grrrr.

then headed hme. on the way checked out the bears at macs for my sis
dunt have E and M only have K!
shall try other outlets tmrw!
okays super smelly and tired now
and i wanna do so so many things!

oh yea and to weiling!
please cheer up!! :)
think its kinda sucky and stuff lah ya
but its all over already. so must enjoy and dun think so much abt it ya! :)

howdy ho! 11:25 PM

Wednesday, November 5

happy birthday chiki!!
-big big vee hug!-

howdy ho! 12:04 PM

x tell yourself, what do you see x
i just saw jennifer oh on channel news asia!
haha whats up with all my frns nowadays
they are all appearin on channel news asia cos they have been interviewed!
hahas gonna watch the repeat at 1am
watched punk'd earlier!
its so funnie! reallie makes the celebrities look real dumb and poorthing
hahas esp justin!
oh yea saw jean danker at the upper concouse in st nicks last friday!
hahas stress buster kit i think
and the whole grp of sec4s were so funnie
they kept singin the chi wa wa song and cheering agn and agn..
okay back to my muggin! :)

there must be so many ways to say goodbye
i'm breaking up again
but just when i thought i could hear her voice
it echoes in my head

i'm sorry if i say the wrong things
i'm sorry if you feel that i don't want you anymore
but how can i believe any words that she says to me
when everything comes out wrong

she's built and torn down anyone that gets close to her heart
to her heart

there must be so many ways to say goodbye
but i can't seem to think of one this time
so many ways to say goodbye
even if she isn't mine
i'm still losing my mind

howdy ho! 12:32 AM

Tuesday, November 4

x picking myself up once again x
i did my gbk agn!! hahas now i wanna change my blog template
cos i saw so many other nicer pictures!
ahhh okay but too lazy
so i shall stick with the one now
gonna study now! have only finished 1A, 4A and 4B!
shucks :(

taking my time
i'm trying to leave the memories of you behind
i'm gonna be fine
as soon as i get your picture right out of my mind

howdy ho! 12:39 PM

Monday, November 3

yes! my gbk template is done!
just tht i need to do smth abt the text box..
hmm will wait till after my Os
anyway i only did the editing part
special thanks to NIGEL who figured out how to make the text boxes appear in front of the picture!
yepps so thanks!! :)

lying through evrything;
falling yet again to where i thought i would never be

howdy ho! 6:59 PM

Sunday, November 2

just watched david blaine on axn!
theres no brainiest tcher tday. boohoo
stupid starwars mans! make me wait for one whole week!
have to wake up at 645 tmrw!
four hrs of lessons
sighsers!
im now a fan of new found glory!
i have a truckload of their lyrics
hahahs. crazy me. and friendster is laggin yet agn! :(

i wish i could have told you,
the things i kept inside,
but now i guess its just too late.
so many things remind me of you,
i hope that you can hear me,
i miss you,
this is goodbye,
one last time..

howdy ho! 9:30 PM

sincerely me; new found glory
dear your name here...
it's been a long time, very long time
since i've heard your voice
and i bet she never thought i was
so sorry so?
i've had a hard time, very hard time
seeing less of you
i never thought you knew
so can you see you're seeing less of me darling
and you're blind to the fact that my
heart stopped beating
and i'm as good as dead
dear i forgot your name again...
just picking up where i left off
this is the part where you leave me
so sorry so?
i've had a hard time, very hard time
seeing less of you
i never thought you knew
so can you see
you're seeing less of me darling
and you're blind to the fact that my
heart stopped beating
and i'm as good as dead
this is all i have to say

howdy ho! 5:48 PM

x its just another day without u here x
haha im so in a bloggin mood cos i like to see the white words appearing on the black background on my blog
this is sucha a lame reason to blog
anyways i woke up to watch huan zhu ge ge! haha
shall go fei's hse to watch it agn
she has the whole collection of them!
and im still stuck in the middle of 4A
bless me :( and theres sch on mon, tues, wed and the followin wks to come..
and the fate of the poor skirt tht has been critisized so badly by my sis is gonna be given to my aunt! hahahas
and on second thought..babarella is not tht bad lah :)

woke up to the sound of pouring rain
the wind would whisper and i'd think of you
and all the tears you cried, that called my name
and when you needed me i came through

howdy ho! 1:34 PM

haha my sis is complaining and complaining abt the skirt tht my mum bought
sayin tht its ah lian, old fashioned, long, has ugly color and makes her look fat!
apparently its supposed to be 49 bucks
but its on sale so its actually 8 bucks!
hahah. and my sis dosen knw cos my mum told me nt to tell her :X
this is so funnie :D

howdy ho! 12:39 AM

Saturday, November 1

yays! its raining damn heavily now
im lovin' it!!
hahas. anyways i forgot to blog abt ytd
it was HALLOWEEN!!!
so of course my cool class and cool frns brought stuff to scare pple
okay..umm only yen brought the screamin mask and black coat
so the first lesson was ms poore!!
so yen hid under the table
then when ms poore came in evryone was like laughin abit alr
then she walked to the tchers table
then while we greeted her
yen (who's under the table) grabbed her leg!!
haha then she got a fright and jumped back!
mans. then we did the same thng for gan's lesson
bt then he was so anti-climax loh
he said " u all not scary lah. cant scare me. you (yen) also not skeleton. shd go to the lab and bring the skeleton over here"
ANTI CLIMAX!! not fun at all

hahas so aft recess we had to go humans room for geog! (yay)
but loyalty was gonna hav zhang laoshi's lesson
so since loyalty and our class had the same chi tcher..
we decided to scare zhang laoshi as well!!
so wl quickly wore the outfit and evrything
but no time to hide!! cos zhang laoshi was alr gonna walk into the class
so i quickly ran toward her and stopped her
and anyhow anyhow ask her abt ting xie and o level chi
purely tokin crap
then heard ck whisper into my ear tht wl was ready
so i stopped askin ques and let zhang laoshi walked into the class
bt then she was still facin us cos she was so surprised tht evryone inviting her to go into 3 loyalty
hahah then when she turned..
she saw wl and she got so scared she ran out and hid behind xinyu like a mouse!!
then her whole face was red!
hahaha tht was sucha corny side
then she kept sayin we very huai dan
haha cute lah she
thnk our tchers are all so funnie mans!

x what's there left to say x
okay! finally blogging after 5 days!
anyways was doin my new template officially launched on the 1st Nov tht is tday!
cos its the start of a new mth
and i did it all by myself!
great achievement!!

anyhows trng ytd was deadly!
the sun was killing. practically eating into my skin..
yeps and earlier part of the day we had lessons as usual
and durin physics ck wrote 'get a life' on her hand
and she helped me write 'yoo suck' and 'wadeva'
haha chilidish stuff lah. then had geog lesson!
very fun! firstly cos its always in the humans room
so its air-conditioned! woo hoo!
and then koh told us which sch he was posted to and his experiences
super funnie!
then later had to go to the hall for some end yr briefing
and they invited yan bao bao ( my sec one chi tcher! ) on stage!
he was very funnie! then he said 'i love you very much' in english
which was qt a good attempt
but apparently it had shandong and chi accent in it so it was qt weird lah
dint reallie hear what he was sayin cos the whole of 3j was discussin on what to cheer

then my koh came on stage!!
woo hoo! 3j stood up and clap and clap and clap!
then we said our cheer
apparently is was super super loud mans
then my koh thanked evryone bla bla bla
haha tht was NOT important cos more importantly was tht he thanked us!
oh wells. i thnk tht was the only part we heard damn clearly cos its abt US!
hahas. was kinda sad lah. evryone started tearing
esp the one on my left..which i wunt say in case she kills me
yea then evryone started to turn and look at us when koh thanked us
was qt malu lahh
fortunately this is not the last meetin!!
we are gonna have gathering at east coast
to see breakwaters and coastal features
but i bet we're just gonna slack and eat mans

oh yah! KANGLIN is ASSISTANT HEAD MONITOR!!
yayys! we won the cutest logo!
cool huh! the frogg! i made the 300 tongues!
ribbit ribbit ribbit..

went hme after trng and slept!
woke up in the mids of the 9pm show
and then my sis went out for supper!
lucky pigg! so i msged her to ask her to buy for me nasi lemak!
yum yum. its very nice!
it has sweet ikan bilis! woohoo
and her frns of hers gave me this name
babarella!
mans! what type of name is tht
it sounds half maid and half barbie
to thnk i gave them such nice names
shd hav thought of worse names mans

okay enough said. shall start studyin all my shou ces!
yes and i will not slack! :))

howdy ho! 6:34 PM