Wednesday, December 31
my voice sucks mans
my throat is still pain though it was much much worse ytd
my sis asked me to shutup and not talk for the whole day cos its damn sucky !
going to my aunts house soon for new yrs eve dinner
all the food ! :))
then should be joining wl and chiki to count dwn!
damn pathetik lah
only 3 of us
hahaha oh wells anyways
HAPPY NEW YEAR ! :D
the all american rejects
one boy, one girl, two hearts, their world
time goes by, secrets rise
One more, sad song, tears shed, she's gone
she'd take it back, if she only could
all the perfect words they seem so wrong,
she's gone
you wish that you could learn to see,
the door is closed and you wish you could be
alone with you, alone with me
what can i do, i cannot breathe
my heart is torn, for all to see
alone with you, alone with me.
best friend, worst thing, she's been, cheating
friend deceives, she leaves
last date. she cries, whispers, goodbye
she walks once more, out that door
please stay, don't go away
the hardest thing is letting go of you
please stay, don't go away
the hardest thing is letting go of you
what can I do?
alone with you, alone with me, what can I do?
i cannot breathe, alone with, alone with,
alone with you, alone with me, what can I do?
i cannot breathe, my heart is torn for all to see,
alone with you, alone with me
howdy ho! 4:57 PM
Monday, December 29
don't look back now x
you're sweet just like the sun
but what happens when the sun doesn't stay?
the night reminds me when you went away
now my mind was pacing, heart is racing contemplating things that i lack
even though you left me by myself, do i want you back?
will you stay or will you walk?
will you let go?
leave me all alone
to make things last
ring around the roses then she'll stay
as the days go by, i am asking why did you leave
you left me alone and then you walked out on me
yeah as the days go by, i am asking why did you leave
you left me alone and then you walked out on me
sheena just told me smth
which is like totally impossible !!
so whatever it is..
i said things i shouldn't have
so you shouldn't look back now for love is in your hands..
anyways
im forced to type this
" benny is the best kor in the world ! "
happy ?
howdy ho! 4:26 PM
Sunday, December 28
today was really unsuccessful
unsuccessful attempt to try to do maths ;
and an unsuccessful shopping spree
didnt manage to buy anything !!
anyhows i just realised that i havent ate orange bowl in TWO months already !
damn sad !!!! :(((((((
so i guess thats the only thing im looking forward to when sch reopens
oh yea im officially missing the hockers
xinyi's "perfect" english and chai's enthusiasm..
oh yah ! somebody please tell me when is spring cleaning ?
howdy ho! 1:02 AM
Saturday, December 27
its never a good thing to be too dependent
who can ever tell what will happen ?
its hard to tell who's true ;
if history was to repeat itself
i really won't know how else to help myself,
either that or it will take a very, very long time..
howdy ho! 3:49 AM
Friday, December 26
guess what i did today
i went to try on my sch uniform and shoes !
haha damn dumb lah
must be too long never wear sch uniform,
and now i find it damn fun !
i love my sch uni !
have been wearing the same ij uniform for 9 years already !
oh wells. im waiting to go back to school for spring cleaning ( obviously i wont do anything )
but im not looking forward for the term to start
theres still cca fair !
so i guess the first week would still be quite alright !
howdy ho! 9:16 PM
im back! apparently i reached home at 1245 am so this is just and update abt what happened ytd !
was damn crazy!
cos first, vain me brought my camera to town
must finish the film lah
then took a foto at the mrt station
and tht guy took friggin long to take a foto!!
he was like standin up then bend down and we ( kerr, wl and me ) were like standing there with faces trying hard not to laugh
okay then headed to cine where we finally decided tht we didnt wanna watch any movie after damn long
so we walked ard and stopped my coffeeclub xpress
the milkshake damn good!
shall go agn another time
went heeren before that and then i decided tht we shd take a foto outside heeren with the fossil watch advert
so i asked this woman to take and she passed the cam to this ang moh!
like damn funnie!
a singaporean askin a foreigner to take foto
then this guy sudd walked past us and said
" you from singapore ? "
then i quickly said no no
cos didnt wanna malu myself
then he went like
" oh not singapore ? JB? JB? "
laugh till can die lah
then wl and kerr kept blamin me ! :|
went best denki
waited DAMN long only lah
had fun with the fans, fridges, water heaters and what have you mans
we like damn suaku
and then this woman thot kerr was workin in best denki
so she asked her wheres lynn ?
like HUH! we laugh like shit lah
then the woman diaoed us and said " is it funnie ? "
yucks! damn irritated!
then went to play pool
damn hilarious man
yuan loong came!
then we were so fascinated with his fone
he even downloaded his own voice for his ring tone and msg tone!
damn corny can
kept takin fotos with his cam
damn cheap thrill
then ate dinner at mos and waited
then go play pool agn
kerr went home first though :(
saw damn many pple at the pool place
the way pple can act so well really amuses me
anyhows ran like crazy to catch the last train
damn tiring considering the fact tht i wasnt even wearing shoes can
sheer torture!
ahh i cant sleep for like almost 3 days already
its like i sleep damn late but i still can wake up before 12 ?
when usually i sleep till 3.30 pm
smth is damn wrong!
haha must be too happy already !
feel damn free now
everything's over :)))))))))))
howdy ho! 12:53 PM
Thursday, December 25
ahhh is xmas at last!
would be goin out later in the day with kerr, wl and ck i think!
haha ahh so long never see them already can!
am excited !
umms not much to blog !
im happy the way my life is ! :)
imagine me and you, i do
i think about you day and night, it's only right
to think about the girl you love and hold her tight
so happy together
if i should call you up, invest a dime
and you say you belong to me and ease my mind
imagine how the world could be, so very fine
so happy together
i can't see me lovin' nobody but you
for all my life
when you're with me, baby the skies'll be blue
for all my life
me and you and you and me
no matter how they toss the dice, it has to be
the only one for me is you, and you for me
so happy together
i love this song !!
the heineken song ! yay ! :D
howdy ho! 2:47 AM
Wednesday, December 24
accept it and move on x
my sis has been hogging on the comp for so long leaving me only the wee hours of the night to come online
ughhs
ahh awaiting for xmas to come!!
actually would just be going out
but its better than nothing
and it actually reminds me that sch is reopening soon ?
and i should start doing hols hwk instead of tuition hwk ?
but tuition seems more important to me i think ?
all the sch does is to ask us to read hong lou meng which would take me decades before i can finish it :|
i remember mama sayin' you can't hurry love
no, you'll just have to wait
she said love don't come easy
it's a game of give and take
i can't hurry love
no, you'll just have to wait
she said trust, give it time
no matter how long it takes, gotta wait!
so tired of explaining things
some things are just meant to be
howdy ho! 2:25 AM
Monday, December 22
they never understand x
getting into the christmasy mood!
tuition hwk seems more manageable cos im gettin into the doing-maths-is-fun mood
damn weird
hahaha anyways i feel damn happy! :))
howdy ho! 3:33 AM
Saturday, December 20
i keep telling myself its time
but i know its not gonna be so soon
everyday a different life
but still im escaping it all the same day by day
all she says seems so familiar
but you know it aint referring to me no more
get a grip
yeah im struggling
is it working ?
but its funny how my heart ain't drenched in wine like before
its funny that i don't seem to ache that much ?
or is it because its already too numb ?
howdy ho! 4:16 AM
Friday, December 19
watched vcds till 630 am on mon/tues morn while my sis desperately trying to finish sewing the precious thoughts thing for ekky
so apparently she didnt watch the show at all
or rather she wasnt even interested!
but its nice to me though..
havent been bloggin/comin online
gonna cont with this routine cos when sch reopens im gonna have totally no life
imagine doin tys everyday and havin to prepare for tests every 1 or 2 days?
ahhh! sheer torture
and i havent even touched my hong lou meng ?
the book is very boring i tell you
kerr, wl and sheena are at dont know where now for their camp
FOUR DAYS!!!
haha they are sure gonna be smelly and tired pigs when they get back
yipes! hope evrything goes well for them!
npcc is such a tough cca man
anyways xmas is just around the corner!
like another 6 days time ?
i wanna go count down!
haha sounds stupid though but i hope i can!
don't worry about me i'm gonna make it alright
got my enemies cross haired and in my sight
i take a bad situation gonna make it right
in the shadows of darkness i stand in the light
ya see it's my style and i'll keep true
i had a bad year but i got through
i've been knocked out, beat down, black and blue
she's not the one coming back for you
she's not the one coming back for you
if i fall back down
you're gonna help me back up again
if i fall back down
you're gonna be my friend
it takes disaster to learn a lesson
we're gonna make it through the darkest nights
some people pretend to make a reason
but that one make everything alright
well the rest of times they don't face me
even if i look and act pretty crazy
on my way down she betrayed me
now my vision is no longer hazy
see i'm very lucky to have my crew
they stood by me when she's through
i've been knocked out, beat down, black and blue
she's not the one coming back for you
she's not the one coming back for you
if i fall back down
you're gonna help me back up again
if i fall back down
you're gonna be my friend
this song is not only nice but damn true..
howdy ho! 3:10 AM
Tuesday, December 16
hate to be reminded of stuff that i don't want to
cause evrytime it happens
it all turns out wrong
so leave it
shut the fuck up she said, i'm going fucking deaf
you're always too loud, everything's too loud
now that all my friends left, this place is fucking dead
i wanna move out, when can we move out?
this shit has got to stop
i'll run away
get the fuck up, she said your life is meaningless
it's going nowhere, you're going nowhere
you're just a fuck-up, she said i'll live alone instead
she said you don't care, i know i don't care
i'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off i'm not listening to you
i'm not coming home, i'm never going to come back home
i got too fucked up again, and passed out on the plane
tried to forget you, i can't forget you
no sleep on this flight, i'll think about the nights
we had to get through, how did we get through ?
i'll never ask permission from you,
fuck off i'm not listening to you
i'm not coming home, i'm never going to come back home
i'll run away
i think it's time that i should leave
i think it's time that i should leave
i think it's time that i should leave
i think it's time that i should leave
howdy ho! 2:05 AM
Saturday, December 13
It's not wrong to state tht "it is better to be loved than to love". Have u ever been loved? It's wonderful a feeling to know tht someone out there cares & thinks about u, & tht u are wanted & needed in this world. Besides tht, u know tht there will always be this person who will lend u his shoulders, listen to your sorrrows & shower u with love whenever u are down or depressed. Isn't it a blessing to be loved? But, how many times do u return this love? Have u ever spared a thought for those who love u? The truth is, we seldom think of the people who love us. It is simply because we did not realise how much we mean to them. If u are to put yourself in the shoes of those who love u, how much u yearn to see the one u love is how much the person who loves u feels for u. Now, we all know tht it's not a good job to be loving someone. So, what should u do with the person who loves u? Well, if u understand what I've just mentioned above, what will your answer be?
some meaningful stuff courtesy of nigey
but of course..
there's always the other side of the story
its 2am now so i guess my sis will be touching down in an hrs time!
haha and shes gonna be at the airport till 5am to take bus back?
good! i can see what she bought for me
hope its nice..
cant wait!
it isn't exactly a sense of euphoria to be free ;
cause every now and then it comes back again
it seems like forever ;
when can it all go away ?
yeah, when can it all go away ?
howdy ho! 2:00 AM
Thursday, December 11
"An angel must earn it's wings, dear one. A teacher must first learn. A guide must first wonder. There is a reason for doubt, for fear, for pain. There are many lessons that we must fully understand in our lives before we can move on."
got this from nigey..
thought it was meaningful
anyhows benny told me this!
" don't let your problems conquer you "
haha thought it was qt good too
amazingly it came from him..
hahahas. oh wells!
3 am already and i have two trngs later on
will be out from morning till night
this is how sad :(
howdy ho! 2:55 AM
i think my sis has a serious problem!
she called me all the way from aust just to tell me to collect a volleyball from junxu!!
like so retarded!
had to carry the ball all the way to src
fortunately i had a big bag
and 2 pple approached me to do surveys
one at orchard and another at cityhall
do i look friendly or does my face have the hey-do-survey-on-me-please look?
haha oh wells not complainin here lah
the surveys were quite alright
anyhows had fun durin trng..
and theres 2 trainings tmrw
or maybe today cos its 12.57 am already
so i have to bring two sets of clothes!
haiis! i will be all stinky and dirty and only gonna bathe at like 8 ?
gees. cant imagine!
but i hope it will be fun !!
howdy ho! 12:51 AM
Monday, December 8
but if your heart's not in it for real
please don't try to fake what you don't feel
if love's already gone
it's not fair to lead me on
cause i would give the whole world for you
anything you ask of me i'd do
but i won't ask you to stay
i'd rather walk away
if your heart's not in it
you say that you love me
but baby sometimes
you're just saying the words
if you've got somethin' to tell me
don't keep it inside
let it be heard
if your hearts not in it ; westlife
quite a nice song..
maro was
a Lively Hair Stylist
in a past life.
howdy ho! 11:44 PM
Sunday, December 7
oh yes! i forgot to blog abt smth
say..i woke up this sat morning
which is like ytd lah
and i dreamt of this pink snake in the toilet!
it attacked me and my thigh went red
so i hurry rush out of the toilet and went with my mum to see a doc
and then on the way along the corridor
i saw this thin long black snake!
and i ran up the stairs
after tht i saw another short and thin snake at the lift landing!!
this is how freakyy..
Snakes are often seen as symbols of life, death and rebirth. Recurring dreams indicate a fear or an unresolved issue. Snakes can also indicate trouble in your life. It could mean that something is worrying you and needs to be resolved by you.
howdy ho! 2:19 AM
Saturday, December 6
i'm sick of always hearing
all the sad songs on the radio
all day it is there to remind an over sensitive guy
that he's lost and alone, yeah
i hate our favorite restaurant, favorite movie, our favorite show
we would stay up all through the night
we would laugh and get high
and never answer the phone
i can't forgive
can't forget
can't give in what went wrong
cause you said this was right
you fucked up my life
i'm sick of always hearing
sappy love songs on the radio
this place is fucking cursed in its plague
and i can never escape when my heart it explodes
i can't forgive
can't forget
can't give in what went wrong
cause you said this was right
you fucked up my life
i'm kicking out fiercely of the world around me
what went wrong [x4]
i'm kicking
this song doesn't really apply here
but its really quite nice
its too boring to be home on a sat night
but then again i have alot of tuition hwk to do
and theres no food!
shall go cook my korean noodles soon! :)
howdy ho! 8:11 PM
Friday, December 5
happened to read her blog
i realised that i treasured those that, in the end, hurt me greatly
and failed to treasure those that care
irony ;
it maybe just a simple entry to you
but still it did wake me up from the situation that im in
and i can truly say now that
i'm glad that its over
howdy ho! 4:52 PM
i hope x
havent been bloggin for a couple of days
basically its just pure trng for 4 days in a row!!
and my shoulders got burnt
this is how unlucky
i have such an uneven tan now
haha i realised its damn funnie to hang out with xinyi
cos she always makes ALOT of eng mistakes
with her grammer and pronunciation
and then me chai and chow will laugh non-stop
like its supposed to be three pure or triple science
and she said it as triple pure ;
mrs rosalind soh she pronounced as rosalina soh ;
came up with a word called FROZING ;
and just the other day i was sayin womEn is pronounced differently as womAn
and she went like " oh womEn is just many womEn "
its supposed to be many womAn!!
at src, she was supposed to say " i look at the food quite nice "
but instead she shortcut and said " i look quite nice"
and me and chow were like " huh ? u look quite nice ??"
DAMN CORNY!
the past 2 trngs was without jude so it was more fun than ever
if only all trngs were like that
oh yah i developed the photos!!
the grad ones, at esplanade, taka, ikea & the hockey farewell!
im takin orders!
wl, kerr and ck if you all are readin this please inform me!
my sis is leavin for sydney/ melbourne in 5 hours time
will be back 8 days later
shes such a lucky pigg!
which means i will be eatin less for dinner for the next 8 days cos its hard to cook for 2 pple!!
ahhh happiness!
weight losing programme in progress!
i hope :|
maybe i'm not ready for this, and you know it.
maybe i'm too scared to tell you what i'm really thinking
it's not fair to stay together because of regrets we might have.
i don't want to fall asleep alone, but do i want to wake up with you?
i'm only trying to be completely honest.
so i guess this is the ending or a beautiful mistake.
and if we both agree that we shouldn't be together why does it hurt so much?
i feel like i lost my closest friend.
i don't want to fall asleep alone, but do i want to wake up with you?
i hope you're happy and completely lonely.
i don't want to fall asleep alone, but do i want to wake up with you?
i hope you're happy and completely lonely.
i don't want to fall asleep alone, but do i want to wake up with you?
i'm only trying to be completely honest.
i know its hard for you to say goodbye ;
i know you want to be there for me.
i promise that i will take care of myself ;
i hope you do too.
i don't know if this is the best way out ;
but i hope it is.
howdy ho! 1:55 AM
Tuesday, December 2
match agnst pjc
nothing much lah
just tht the pjc coach is good looking okay!
hahaha tmrw SRC trng can see him agn
okay very paiseh cos think all the sec3s know already :|
and i am just so so unlucky
this is the fourth day i got caught in the damn rain
why doesn't it rain on times when i want it to
like when im sleeping?!
ughh! :(
they gave me a life that's not so easy to live
and then they sent me on my way
i left my love, forgot my dreams
i lost them along the way
howdy ho! 3:01 AM
Monday, December 1
im back home at last!!
almost 12 already
and as expected my sis is not home!
how can she even watch a movie when she has no money to go aust already!
tsk tsk -shakes head-
had tuition early in the morning!
i only slept 4 hrs and for 3 consecutive days already!
the tutor's house so far..
i had to do so much walking
started on differentiation with this oh-so-smart ri guy and another girl
and have to do hwk!! AHH!
headed home and slept!!
was so so tired
but chow had to call me to wake me up
tell me hurry go chai's house
so brought the food to chai's house and started helpin
okay not much help actually
was only tearin aluminium foil cos i dont know how to cook :|
then chai was cuttin the stingray
so i was like stupidly saying
" i never see stingray raw before "
and chow said
" but stingray cannot raw one "
then i looked at her with tht blur face
cos the raw stingrays were like right in front of me!
how can they not be raw right ?
then she started laughin and laughin then said
" stingrays cannot raw one. only lions roar "
SO LAME!!
okay ANYWAY, when we were all done with the lanterns ( the farewell gifts )
we realised tht jaslyn came!!
so had to secretly make amendments to the other lantern!
feel so sad for her cos it was like qt badly done and the most extra!
but its the thought that counts lah right ?
finally finished her lantern at ard 8
then headed down to eat
very little food left already so just ate abit
but qt full actually
then went to the billiard room!
damn sucky lah
haha shant elaborate
the sec 4s said the lanterns were damn sweet cos we hung it in the karaoke room
and it really looked damn nice!!
then presented tanny her big big lantern!
really nice with a message hangin at the bottom..
then the sec4s watched nemo while me, chow, den, chai and xinyi went up to chai's house to play daidee
i walked up with den's heels!
ahaha feel so tall!
taller than xinyi and evrybody else! :D
found out alot of gossips from den!
i realised she knows alot alot of stuff!!
then played till like 11 plus and took a lift home from laura
thanks thanks! :)
me and chow so noisy in the car
felt quite bad! hahaha
i think this was one of the more "gathered" gatherings
cos most of the sec4s came!
its like we are not gonna see them during trng anymore
to think it was like ytd when we first started trng with them..
hope they will come back and visit though
and im so gonna kill myself cos i was caught in the rain again!
3 days in a row. and im starting to get a slight flu.. :(
howdy ho! 1:11 AM